Posts tagged obsess
My many obsessions
Oct 19th
I don’t think I have OCD but I do obsess about things. I have had many more obsessions over the years but I will mention a few and yes a new one.
* I started scrapbooking years ago. I bought scrapbooking albums and got my Girl Scout troop interested in scrapbooking. I have done two Girl Scout Scrapbooks, one partially done one for hubby as a gift, and one family album with about 4 pages in it. I haven’t scrapbooked in about 5 years tho I still collect supplies for when I do. I have drawers of supplies like stickers, stampers and even bought another scrapbook album about two months ago. But have yet to actually scrapbook or print many pictures in years.
* I became obsessed with making my own jewlery at one time. I started with beads of all sorts and moved on to buying clay and making my own beads. I haven’t touched my supplies in about 3 years.
* I became obsessed with computers when I got my first one about 14 years ago. I wanted to learn and know everything about them. I taught myself html and wound up enrolling in college to learn even more. I thought I was going to work with computers one day. I had to quit going to school for other reasons but never went back and stopped obessing about computers. Of coarse I blog, facebook, etc but I don’t study them nor care to anymore. My geek status is in the toilet.
* When my husband was in the military he was stationed in Savannah, GA. I had always wished we never left and missed the south. Now and then I would mention wanting to move back one day but it wasn’t until we went on vacation an hour from Savannah that i became obsessed with it. We have vacationed there every year since and my need to move there becomes a bigger obsession each year. I don’t think that will ever die until I do move there.
* My newest obsession is painting. A friend of mine and I came up with the idea to paint to let out some creativity and boredom. I had never painted before and researched the net for some inspiration. I came up with the idea to print out theme words and pick them out to use in each piece. The first one I used was “smoking”. I used actual cigarette pieces in my finished painting.
I have made a total of two craft store shopping trips in a week and spent over $100 on my new obsession. I think I needed a creative outlet but I hope this one lasts.
Is it a form of OCD? I do get pretty crazy and obsess about having enough supplies. I notice I especially get obessed with creative outlets but never keep up with them for some reason.
Dog Collection
Oct 12th
There was a time I wanted more children and was upset that we choose early in life that we were done. You can’t blame us after having three by 25. I am one of those people who wanted nothing more out of life than to be a stay at home mom and take care of a gaggle of kids.
For many years I was a Girl Scout Leader enjoying other peoples kids to fill that void. It did start with my daughter wanting to be a Girl Scout, but little did I know how much it would fill a need for me.
I have a need to care for others. Its something naturally in me. My kids are all getting older with my youngest 12 and my oldest graduating high school this year. We talk all the time and spend time together but they don’t need that nurturing I miss giving to a toddler. I now work full time and no longer do Girl Scouts after 11 years so whats a girl to do to fill that nuturing need? My answer is apparently collecting dogs.
Of coarse I had Angel who passed away last year and she filled a huge part of my heart. She was like one of my children and when she died I felt like I lost a child. I am apparently over compensating for the need to nuture and the need to have back ups.
So welcome Baby, Pudgy and the newest addition Itty Bitty. My husband said I am done collecting.
I can’t win
Oct 29th
That’s how I feel anyway.
I feel like I am making progress controlling my anxiety and well, shit happens.
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A few nights ago I went to a performance at my daughters school. I hate taking public transportation, that usually sets my anxiety off to begin with. My daughter wanted me to be there for her so I dealt with it. There was a parent there I hadn’t seen in a few years. I saw her a few times but probably only waved and kept walking. Our daughters had been going to school together for the past 5 years. So she goes on to tell me stories of how she was sick for weeks a few years ago and went on to tell me this story of how she almost died. Then she shared a story of how she almost lost her hearing due to an ear infection.
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She has Fibromyalgia. I honestly don’t know much about it other than what I looked up today online. I think its even slightly possible I resemble the symptoms. I mentioned to mom I have severe anxiety and explained to her that when I think something is wrong with me my mind goes insane and I think there is something more horribly wrong with me. I told her for a reason as I don’t share that with just everyone in conversation. I told her because she was freaking me out with her stories. So to end the evening she told me to quit smoking because her sister died of lung cancer. People just don’t understand. I can’t watch certain movies and can barely tolerate the news.
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I spent alot of time thinking and worrying as I have been sick for a few weeks. It’s lingering and won’t go away. That happens alot actually. So I made a doctor appointment for Monday to ease my mind.
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I have been tired, reserved, not wanting to talk too much.
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Last night I fell asleep about 10pm. I woke up at 6am with a pain in my chest.
It’s been awhile but I had to take a pill. I’ve had the same pain before and many trips to MedExpress, the ER and my doctor have told me nothing. There is nothing wrong. Ugh! I can’t take it. I would rather have my eye twitch uncontrollably than have a pain in my chest area just so my mind would be more at ease. I am tired of ER docs giving you that OMG ITS JUST ANXIETY YOU NUT CASE look every time. But one of these days I won’t know if it’s a true emergency and will be too afraid to go.
I almost stayed home today but went to work for fear of being home alone when I am like this. So I have this pain and now a pain in my leg.
I am a bit slower because of the medication.
I am worried that something is wrong with me. I should have stayed home. I can’t deal with all these people and my work.
I haven’t had a cigarette since 3pm yesterday. Not sure how much that is contributing.
Just go away and let me live!
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People like me always have to wonder just how crazy we really are.
TGI.. never mind
Aug 27th
Well it’s a slow Friday for me at work. I have loads of work to do my problem is time is going too slow. And I can’t say TGIF cause dammit I work tomorrow! Who ever invented working on weekends needs punched.
Raise your hand if your wondering where the rest of my vacation blogs are…………….. if you happen to be the one person who raised your hand they will hopefully be up by next week. If you didn’t raise your hand, well eff too bad.
I wanna go camping this fall. Personally I would rather go to the beach but I can’t justify the driving distance and money lost as hubby and I are both out of vacation days. I have had my days of roughing it in the woods. Those days are over. We used to camp with the kids for 10 days, that was our vacation. I am a spoiled bitch and refuse to spend a week cooking outside, walking to a bathroom, and hiking. When we started going to the beach I wasn’t turning back. So I am looking at either a small cabin for just my family or to rent a big lodge somewhere for a bunch of people to go with us. If any of our friends interested just let me know!! If I get crickets on that well were going alone and that’s fine too. Oh, and don’t worry I’m just going away for a weekend. That’s about all of the woods I think I can deal with right now.
I’m wrestling a few things in my mind these days. I have been on the “Were moving” campaign for awhile. I started researching areas other than my first choice. My first choice is rediculously expensive and jobs are just forget it. I’m trying to convince myself that maybe hubby is right and we should wait. I don’t wanna wait till all my kids are graduated. Two of the three want to go with us. So we wait and may have one who refuses to move. We don’t wait and maybe have one or two pissed that we didn’t move sooner. I need to decide what’s right, what I can live with and whats best for my kids. Ugh, why do life decisions have to be so hard.
Hope everyone has a great weekend! Try not to have too much fun without me while I am working tomorrow.
It’s been awhile
Aug 3rd
July 20th was my last post here. Many of you know alot has been going on. With requests not to discuss certain personal issues it’s made it difficult to bother writing at all. When that’s what your dealing with, it’s what you wanna write about.
Things have been well and getting better. We did manage to go on our vacation and had a wonderful time. Hilton Head Island is one of those places that when you go, you don’t want to leave. I was ready to beg my husband halfway through SC to turn around and go back. Who cares if were broke, have no job and no place to stay. I don’t want to get stuck in PA. In my mind you just have to do it. In his mind we have to plan, prepare, find the right job, etc. The “right” job may never come. I told him I would clean toilets to move there I don’t care and I mean it.
I will be blogging about my vacation soon. The plan is to blog each day separately. My computer at home is acting up so I need to figure out how to get my camera pics on here to use. I have alot of work to catch up on at work so I am not sure how much time I will have this week but I will try to start getting it out this week.
For now I will leave you with this pic taken Friday, July 30th, 2010 ………………
Weekend Spending Spree
Jul 20th
I have been busy finalizing plans for vacation. You can tell where my mind is by today’s shirt choice ……………
Over the weekend we went to Southside Works for the i made it!market. There were many great vendors with their handmade goodies. It sure was a hot weekend but thanks to the fountain in front of the Cheesecake Factory the kids kept pretty cooled off.
I bought these great soy candles from Make Peace Naturals. The smell’s are out of this world tho they do burn pretty fast but they burn clean and even. Check out some scents like Monkey Farts and Grandpa’s Pipe, which actually smell good! I purchased Macintosh Apple, Grandpa’s Pipe, and Lemongrass. I wanted Lilac but they only had it in a large candle.
We made another trip to Harmony Salon. I got my roots done and a trim and Ali got a trim. Harmony is great she gave Ali a crimp and some pink 
She loved it! We also got to take home some of her new Mother’s Milk Shampoo and Conditioner to try. It smells so good! I woke up today with very soft hair today
She loved it! We also got to take home some of her new Mother’s Milk Shampoo and Conditioner to try. It smells so good! I woke up today with very soft hair today 
I am not lost
Jul 15th
I haven’t blogged in a few days, or done much of anything online for that matter. I figured I would give an update on my thoughts and going’s on for the week.
* I am trying to stay positive and strong for the hubby. He doesn’t want me to talk about whats going on with the world, unfortunately I already have blogged about it. I managed to tell a little lie about it to him because it was important to him the world wasn’t told and I didn’t want to upset him. Shhhhhhhh The medical situation hasn’t improved in the sense that the test results weren’t what we were hoping. It has improved in the fact that the situation will be regulated and monitored. It’s messing up our vacation plans in a sense but were trying to fix that issue. The stress, worry, etc is making me just not want to talk or be bothered really.
* I want to thank everyone who does read my blog. Especially those who read every one I wrote and tell me they look forward to my posting. It can sometimes be hard to come up with content, sometimes I could write all day. I started my blog not caring how many people read it and I still feel the same but that doesn’t mean I don’t appreciate the ones who do. It’s you who I write for as well as myself.
* My parents aren’t online at all. Never have been and probably never will be. Recently I have been asked by mom to never mention them online nor share any pictures. Not that she would ever read it, but you never know what family member may find my blog and mention it or even a family friend. So from now on I have no parents when it comes to the online world. Yes I realize I just broke the request by even saying this LOL
* Since I started blogging I have an obsession with reading other blogs, especially local ones. I was never into watching the news but I get news feeds now. There I can skip content I don’t want to read about. My Ipod RSS reader is always full of great content to read anytime I want it. Check out my Blogroll link at the top of the page for some bloggers I read regularly.
* Just an FYI….. I review alot of places I eat or venture to. I wanted to make sure everyone knows I have never received anything for my review. No one has asked me to come and try them and no one has given me anything even after the fact. If that ever happens I will share it but I just want to make it clear that I don’t do it to seek anything out or because I received anything. I write about my life, as it is.
I may have more later or in a few days. Right now I need to sort things out. Hope to write soon!
Beach Me
Jun 7th
I started my blog after our last two vacations. For the last two years we have went to Hilton Head Island, SC. If you haven’t visited, you must. It’s not some spend all your money going to amusement parks and what not kinda place. It’s a relax and enjoy the beach and we have some activities and shopping if you want them kinda place. You could spend all your money there, but you really get something for it. Weather its items to take home or an experience like you can’t get back home. But it’s a place where you don’t feel like you have to spend money. You can enjoy a vacation.
I fell so much in love with it there I have been trying to convince my family to move there. It hasn’t been easy.
Mmmmm just thinking about it I can smell the ocean when were driving and get close to the island. If I close my eyes I can hear the ocean, I can feel the sand in my toes. Sometimes I actually sit outside my house on a warm windy day and imagine being there. Yeah I know I obsess.
I took pictures on vacation for family photo’s. When I photograph for my blog I take different types of pictures but let’s see what I can come up with from last years trip to make you understand.
We hit the beach before checking in, considering we arrive a few hours before were allowed to check in.
Boys enjoy making holes.
My youngest enjoys covering up in sand.
We enjoy shelling when the tide is low. All these wonderful pools of water to see creatures and loads of shells are washed ashore.
We like to eat out on vacation. It’s my vacation too I don’t like cooking every day.
Private beach access is awesome!
Nature is beautiful………….
Some scenery around town:
I was on vacation last year and realized someone I went to high school with lived there. We spent an evening drinkin and havin a good time and met some of his friends
The sky is just beautiful:
You can get almost anywhere on the island by bike, which is what we did the majority of the week.
As we crossed over the bridge to leave the island I shed a tear, okay I cried. It’s not that I don’t wanna leave vacation. I wanna leave home. I realize I would have to have a normal life and work and all that jazz. But I wanna do it there. I’ve wanted to move back down south ever since we left Savannah, GA 15 years ago.
I haven’t booked a trip for this year yet. Finances just aren’t good and my being laid off didn’t help at all. I am really trying to scrimp and find a way to make it happen. Keep your fingers crossed for me!
Random Thoughts
May 11th
Roxy…………
* Is not feeling very productive today.
* hates that it’s raining. Other than a week or two of good weather it has sucked here in Pittsburgh.
* is bored. Someone wanna go to lunch someday soon?
* states, This is my 3rd blog today, somebody stop me!
* thinks Twitter is the devil.
* may make chicken for dinner tonight. And spinach raviolis! Yummy
* want’s to go shopping. I haven’t bought myself anything in a long time.
* want’s to go on vacation so bad! Calgon take me away! I need a beach!
* is sad the Pens lost last night. I sat in the car to hear the end. Next game decides. I have faith they will win.
* ‘s phone doesn’t ring anymore. It used to before I was working. I guess now everyone is used to not calling.
* Is determined to check out Whole Foods.
* Is determined to go to the Pittsburgh Flea, maybe I can shop for myself there.
* has tons of stuff to get rid of. Maybe I should put an ad on craigs list. I could use the money.
* wants to move out of the ghetto. Aside from a few, and I mean a few, people this area sucks!
* wants to stop bitching. Maybe I should listen to some music.
* thinks Adam Lambert is yummy. I don’t care if he is gay.
* is addicted to reading other blogs, especially ones about Pittsburgh.
* is going to my daughter’s performance tonight.
* is going to harvest my farmville farm and get off this computer!
