Posts tagged Love
If I ever marry again…
Apr 13th
I am not the kind if girl that wants something huge and costs as much as a car. I do however want something.
My first marriage not only turned out to be a disaster there really was no wedding. We were married at the local magistrate. At the time I thought I didn’t care but in the end I really did. The biggest problem was I got married for the wrong reasons.
My needs are small but to me they are important.
• I want to be asked properly and for the right reasons. Yes I am a sap when it comes to that.
• I want a small outdoor wedding that is not religious. My love of nature and the breeze blowing my hair and my dress.
• Close family and friends are the only people needed to attend. I refuse to invite more people for the gifts. I also don’t love a huge crowd.
• I want to wear a beautiful dress. It doesn’t have to be a ball gown or even white, just an actual wedding dress.
• I want it to be a day of fun for everyone. I want food and dancing. I want it to showcase love.
I have very simple requests.
You don’t need anything to be happy, but I think it’s important to have a day of celebration of each other. Not just a 15 min event in court in between hearings. Maybe it’s because of my first marriage. Maybe it’s because I’m a chick and in all honesty girls dream of their wedding day. Do I have a pinterest board dedicated to wedding stuff? I plead the 5th LOL what girl doesn’t? You won’t find mine 
Do I ever have to get married again? No, I don’t. I would rather live with the love of my life in sin than get married for the wrong reasons and regret it.
The Best in Me
Mar 4th
I was depressed. I thought so low of myself. He probably had no idea what train wreck was about to come into his life. I was a mean and hateful person to many people. I knew that wasn’t me. I knew I was a better person in there somewhere. I just couldn’t see it for so long.
I feel alive.
It reflects in everything I do. I think more often before I speak. I wear brighter clothes. I look forward to waking up everyday.
YOU brought out the best in me my love <3. Thank you!
Lucky
Jul 10th
That is exactly how I feel, lucky. Lucky in Love.
As good of a person as I am I never thought anyone else would want me. I never thought another guy would want the baggage I had. I never thought someone could look past my issues and see me.
Without looking I found that person. The guy who makes me feel good about myself. The guy who is willing to help me unpack my baggage. The guy who loves me even with my faults.
He is over 1000 miles away at the moment and I don’t want anyone else. I don’t see other guys in the same way I see him. He is special, and I don’t mean short bus special 
In my many years of adulthood I have never met someone so caring and sweet. While I am sure he has some faults, as we all do, I don’t see them. I see the person I fell in love with.
I miss him dearly. I have never felt a bond with anyone the way I do with him and we have only spent 4 days together physically. We have spent months getting to know each other and I think that was one of the best things we could have done. We started off honest and openly communicating, something many people never do well.
I love how sweet he is.
I love to hear his voice.
I love everything about him.
Except how far away he is.
We are working on that issue.
One of us will move when were able to.
When it comes to matters of the heart I am not always responsible. My heart tells me to just go, be with him.
We must wait. When one of us finds work in the other’s state, that person moves
I look forward to spending my days and nights with him.
I can’t wait to have my hand in his as we walk.
I can’t wait to lay my head on his chest and hear his heart beat.
I lovers you
<3
Crazy Love Adventure
Jun 22nd
Love can take you on a crazy adventure.
I used to believe in things like destiny, but the past 18 years had destroyed my hope for love. I came to realize in my growing older that while it may not have been the best marriage we made three wonderful kids together that were meant to be in this world.
Facebook is a crazy thing. I met someone on Facebook. I don’t normally add people I don’t know but for some reason three years ago I added someone who played Mafia Wars. We never really spoke, commented on status messages here and there and eventually both quit playing the game. We never deleted each other. One day we started talking on Facebook, then text, then he called me It grew into texting and talking everyday. At some point we knew we were falling for each other though we had never met physically.
This adventure took me to travel over 1000 miles to meet him. A delayed flight, a missed flight, and him having to pick me up at an airport an hour away in middle of the night only made for an interesting part of our story.
I spent the best 4 days / 5 nights of my life with him. He was the same person I fell in love with and fell in love with even more.
We are currently working out moving arrangements. Its crazy. Its
worth it.
My Dave and I. <_3 _="_" p="p">
