Happiness
Jun 8th
I may not think I am beautiful on the outside, but I know I am on the inside.
I am content with the person I have become.
I am content with the way I brought up my children.
I am content will my decisions.
This year marks better choices for myself.
I’ve never felt this good about the future. I am free. I am doing what I want and its OK.
Thank you for bringing the life out of me. Thank you for being the great person you are. Most of all thank you at not being afraid to fall for a crazy like myself 
Destiny…….
Serendipity
Jun 7th
Serendipity means a “happy accident” or “pleasant surprise”; specifically, the accident of finding something good or useful without looking for it.
Sara: You don’t have to understand. You just have to have faith.
Jonathan: Faith in what?
Sara: Destiny
For my Sunshine Bear. I can’t wait
Counting the days
May 17th
Counting down the days,
imagening you by my side.
Were both a little crazy,
along for the ride.
Lay with me in the sand,
and wait for the tide.
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What a ball of mush.
You make me.
I didn’t think it was possible.
I didn’t plan a thing.
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“I just can’t get enough”
“I can’t get you out of my head”
“You are the only exception”
If I am wrong
May 15th
If I am wrong, I don’t want to be right.
I have thought about it and you know what he has a point. If it were reversed and he was talking to someone else (which has happened mind you) I would be livid. In my mind it’s okay because I tried for many years to make things right. I am not the one who said I don’t feel for you that way. Your actions have caused my reactions in how I feel about you. You telling me you don’t want me, seeking out an ex even if you now consider it a mistake played a part in allowing my heart to be open to someone else. The difference is I waited for you, you didn’t want me. I gave up. Oh but you don’t want me, you just think it’s wrong because we live under the same roof. I am okay with that if I am wrong. If it is uncomfortable for you I appologize for that but I never have and never would do anything to intentially hurt you. Not that your hurt, I know better. Besides that you were asked to move out, since your the one who didn’t want a husband/wife relationship.
You feel different about me now? And how is that any worse than my loving you and you neglecting me all these years? It does not phase me.
Though you may break my sprit every now and then I will not allow you to ruin my happiness.
I am allowed
Apr 24th
I struggle with being okay with myself. There are parts of myself I do not like. Everyone has that I am sure, but for me it’s kept me locked up emotionally.
I spent the past 18 years taking care of everyone but myself. I love my children more than anything and they know that.
I have spent the past year really working on myself and while I have come far I know I have more to do.
I know that I have many great things about myself. I have to let that part of me shine through.
I have to let other people in my life.
This is the begining of a new ME I am commited to doing what is best for me.
