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Very Angry

Roxy — Thu, 26 Apr 2012 17:02:48 +0000

I so wanted and planned for things to end civily but I am not sure that can happen anymore.

I don’t regert marrying you, as we have 3 great kids I wouldn’t give up for anything. My only regret is not leaving sooner.

I am still attempting to take the high road. And by high road I mean I have yet to publiclly air every detail of our marriage or publicly bash you, as I so want to.

I have my faults but you have hurt me way too much. Let me leave peacfully. Allow me the courtousy of not making this any more difficult than it already is.

I gave you my heart and soul for many years. Regardless of either of our faults I supported you and loved you no matter what so please the least you owe me is to not be a huge douche bag and make things worse.

You owe me so much more than you will ever give me, but at least give me that.

I leave you to hurt someone else, though I don’t wish it upon anyone. The emotional roller coaster you put me through is something I wouldn’t wish on an enemy.

Don’t make me be mean to you…….

The Boat

Roxy — Fri, 01 Jul 2011 13:44:00 +0000

So the husband aquired this car from some old lady. When I say aquired I mean he did work for trade. He was obsessed with getting this car no matter what I said to him. I explained we need money not another vehicle.

First off our other car needs inspected. There is shit wrong with it. We had been saving to have it fixed. We kind of need this vehicle to get us to our vacation desitnation this summer.

Second another car means more insurance. He assures me it would only be $20 more a month. When you were off work for medical reasons for awhile that “only” doesn’t sit well with me as we are still trying to catch up. It of coarse was not $20 more a month, it was more like $40 more. At the point when I found out it was too late. He had already aquired this old POS and added it onto insurance. I get the email…. Your next premium will be “x” amount of dollars with the new add on. WTF.

It’s a 1980 something Lincoln. It’s a living room on wheels. I feel like an old lady in it.

So he promises not to alter this vehicle. He was over that shit. I haven’t allowed him to alter our other car. Don’t do ANYTHING to it thats not required to keep it running. We have had it for 3 years without him doing any damage. Which is more than I can say for any of our past vehicles. If you know him, you know what I am talking about. If only I had pictures back then.

Our first car a station wagon. It was brown when we got it, primer black when we released it.

Every vehicle we had was altered in some way. I believe every car had a kick ass sterio with speakers and an amp. Probably has something to do with why I get ringing in my ears.

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So he has had the car for about a month now. Let’s see the list of alterations that aren’t mechanical required to keep it running.
- he took the rims off.
- he put a cd player in it in place of the tape deck.
- he put a hole in the back deck and added speakers and an amp to the trunk.
- he put the rims back on.
- he added a sticker to the back window, he hates stickers on cars.
- he took the rims off.
- he added a liscense plate frame with flames around it.
- he put the rims back on.
- he took the rims off.
- he painted the wheel wells.
- he did some sort of alteration to the exaust that included pvc pipe and moving shit under the hood.

Next time I post about the car how much you wanna bet it will be a different color.

Hate is strong

Roxy — Sun, 05 Jun 2011 18:53:00 +0000

I have always hated you did you know that? I doubt you did because I never treated you different. I kept the peace as it was not my choice to have you in my life but a choice someone else made. You made two beautiful children that I have become very close to. There was a time that I spent more time with your children than you did. Years in fact. I went to school functions, I helped set up for their birthday party’s, I went out to dinner for one of their birthdays when your ass refused to. You only started caring about seeing your children when your wife left you. All of a sudden you can’t be without them. I know the truth and the truth in court is what has you angry at me. Don’t tell me you wouldn’t stand up for your family. You would and I wouldn’t blame you. You hate that I told the truth about you. But never once in all these years have I ever said anything bad about you to your children, EVER. They can figure out what breed of asshole you are on their own. Let’s imagine that I had your children for two months over the summer for whatever reason. I was the one in control. I would never treat you the way you treated me on the phone. Your an abusive controlling asshole and I still would never treat you that way. Why? Because that is the kind of person I am. I am better than you. I wouldn’t hesitate to let your family see your children. I wouldn’t treat them like it was a favor to do so. I would never tell them not to contact me while I had them.

I realize this is your time with them as well as your family’s but how dare you treat us like seeing them is a favor. Your children have other family that they love. It is about them. Everyones lives have changed weather for the better or not. Do you think I am happy not seeing them? Hell no I miss them dearly. You made the asshole choices, you fucked up your family not me. I did not lie in a court of law I told the truth but you are the one who fucked up to get you in that position. I know your mad. Stop being a dick and think about your kids for once. I have kids too and they were very close with them as well. Grow up and move on. If you don’t your kids will see the breed of asshole you are. I don’t doubt for a minute that they will as you don’t know how to be a grown up.

As angry as I am at you right now unless you called me and said ignorant things to me I would still be nice to you. Because I am that kind of person. I am better than you.

Pittsburgh Promise Controversy

Roxy — Tue, 15 Feb 2011 21:03:35 +0000

People will bitch about anything and everything that doesn’t even effect them.

What are people bitching about today? WTAE Channel 4 in Pittsburgh posted a news story about the Pittsburgh Promise offering more money for high school students that attend Pittsburgh Public High Schools to attend college.

These people are acting as if it is a hand out for every kid that attends a Pittsburgh Public School. Most commenters have no clue as they most likely had never read anything about it before. Gosh do a search for the Pittsburgh Promise, wait your lazy let me do it for you…… Pittsburgh Promise FAQs

Wanna know what else these jackasses have in common? Their kids don’t attend Pittsburgh Public Schools but they feel the need to bitch. Go complain to your school district.

From the Pittsburgh Promise Website:

The Promise invigorates the entire community, improving the quality of life in the region, and creating a highly qualified workforce that will meet the needs of local employers, both now and in the future.

Aren’t we trying to keep our kids in Pittsburgh? Oh, wait… the suburbians could care less about the kids in Pittsburgh, the city, the ones who attend the pittsburgh public schools.

I am saving my rude responses for here on my blog. I left nicer ones on the WTAE Facebook Page.

Your absolutely crazy if you think that all the parents of Pittsburgh Public Schools do not have high expectations for them. There are plenty that are not EXPECTING to be given a hand out. That is NOT what this is about. Parents never asked for it, it was offered to us. So you tell me that if your school district offered it, you would say, “No thank you I don’t need a hand out.” ???? Your a moron.

Your answer is on the Pittsburgh Promise website. ”Created by The Pittsburgh Foundation, supported by the Pittsburgh Public Schools, and funded through the generosity of our community.”

Newsflash I have one child in a private school too. She will not get the Pittsburgh Promise. I choose a private education for her because she needed it.

Absolutely your choice as was mine for one of my children. I don’t expect her to get shit from Pittsburgh Public Schools.

Your choice to pay outrageous taxes in the suburbs so your kids can go to those schools. Go complain to their board of education. Ask them whey aren’t they setting something up like it.

You made your choices. If your kids do NOT attend Pittsburgh Public Schools it does NOT affect you so I really don’t feel that you have any right to complain.

2.5 doesn’t sound high does it? It’s between a C and B for those of you who don’t understand the grading system. So your telling me that a kid who busts their ass all their life and can’t get A’s doesn’t deserve to go to college. Oh, doesn’t deserve money to go to college. Fuck you. And my daughter who will be the first in the house will graduate with mostly all A’s and some B’s. Taking all AP courses next year and will score advanced in all areas on the PSSA’s so don’t give me that I think my kid is entitled cause she gets crappy grades either.

All you fucking people are bitching about is:

1. Pittsburgh kids expect to get something for nothing.

2. You wish the hell you were getting it. Jealous. Get over it.

People make me sick that they feel they should complain that kids are being given a chance to do things they might not have. To better this city. All you people care about is yourselves.

Thank you for having a brain!

For the last thing I will comment on……..

She is one of the above commentors. I must reside if I am angry. Your so bright I do live in the city, gee how did you figure it out? I actually wasn’t angry on the facebook page. I was pointing out facts. I want to know why the hell you idiots from the suburbs give a shit about city residents you want nothing to do with?

Your dumb asses go into debt because you spend money where it doesn’t need spent and your kids have to go to the best college.

That 40,000 max will put us in debt too. Unless my kid goes to community college there isn’t a free college education coming from anywhere! I am done with jackasses.

Personally

Roxy — Thu, 27 Jan 2011 14:12:08 +0000

I don’t think I have written anything personal on here for awhile.

One thing I will note is I have been fixing my blog. Some of the pics were hosted on the blog before I started this one. I guess the importer didn’t do a very good job. So some pics didn’t work at all and I want them all hosted in one place. So I have been working on putting all my pics the way I want them, not the way the importer placed them. If you have visited any old pages that would explain the missing pics. I am doing as many as I can over the weekends and hope to finish soon.

The Good

- My house is warm.

- I have food.

- My kids are awesome!

- I have a job.

- The co-worker friend and I made up at our work party. I approached her about the issue and all she told me was someone told her I was talking about her. She couldn’t recall what was said. It felt like high school. I have no idea what I did wrong, and it’s very likely it was made up to get us mad at each other, but I don’t know. I am a pretty upfront person and I told her that if she ever has an issue to just ask me, shit I will tell her. Although we talk at work, things are not the same. I miss hanging out with her, but I am glad that we can at least talk at work and not avoid each other anymore.

- My sister is taking me grocery shopping while the bad is happening. I am lucky to have a sister that I can count on! Thank you!!!!!!

The Bad

- My husband got laid off, which meant they took his work truck and his cell phone.

- He didn’t apply for unemployment for almost two weeks after the fact.

- He has been hiding in his man cave in his basement depressed. He is blaming the medication he has to take for seizures. Him hiding in his man cave is nothing new.

- My youngest hasn’t been able to attend gymnastics, that is already paid for, because I have no one to take her and pick her up.

- He needs to make another doctor appointment to get the doc to sign off on the papers for him to drive, but keeps putting it off.

- We are arguing alot. I keep reminding him of things he needs to do (like unemployment and doc appts) and he is getting more and more aggravated with me about that. Forget that aside from the first few days he hasn’t cooked dinner or done anything in the house. I work all day, take 2 buses home, cook dinner and try to clean up. When we both work I still did most everything in the house. He gets laid off and I still do most everything in the house. It doesn’t seem fair.

- This category could turn ugly soon. After 17 years of bullshit I am tired of bullshit. I am tired of being there no matter what, and not getting the same in return. I am tired of loving and not getting the love back.

The Ugly

- I am not talking to one of my sisters. Right before xmas she had nasty things to say about my other sisters fiancée as well as my sister. I am very close with the other sister, always have been. She gets jealous even though she is the one who moved further away from us, doesn’t return calls, doesn’t come around or even talk to our kids. There is so much more to the story that I will not share online because it’s not my life to share but trust me she deserves to not be talked to.

- After the things she said I un-invited her to xmas dinner at my house. I wanted a happy xmas not some drama filled one.

- She in retaliation told me to take her pics off facebook. My facebook security is like fort knox. I know 90% of the people I am friends with. I don’t see my facebook photo albums as being any different than showing friends my photo albums that were over my house. I guess she really doesn’t want to be a part of the family.

- In retaliation she threatened to tell my work things I have said online. Anything on my blog having to do with work is password protected now. Some isn’t even bad, but I wanted to be safe. I did warn my boss and my dad (both part owners of the company) just to be safe. We all know that I am upfront and my boss agreed that he didn’t need to hear what she had to say and that he knows how I feel about work.

- In retaliation she said even worse things directly to my sister than she said to me.

- She said I put too much personal info online. On facebook and my blog. I stopped being so personal to think about it for awhile. I realized that she is not me and can just Frack off. I will be me as that is all I know how to be.

- I blocked her on facebook and removed her from my blogs fan page. I also had my children block her.

So there you have the personal stuff that hasn’t been included in my blog for awhile.

If your on Twitter, you may know some of it. If your on Facebook you probably know most of it. If you know me offline you probably know all the details

Here is to hoping that winter goes away and 2011 becomes a better year somehow. I know I have had enough drama.

Something fishy

Roxy — Wed, 26 Jan 2011 20:28:22 +0000

I frequently shop at a CVS near my work. It is too close not to and most of the employees are very nice. I have gotten to know some of them. They had a clearance section I frequented and have got some great deals from. They stopped the clearance items from being in their own spot and now have it spread through the store where the original items belong. This made it easier for me to note a discrepancy between stores.

The one by my work confirmed that these clearances come from corporate and should all be the same.

They dont look the same to me.

50% off in Downtown Pittsburgh
75% off in Swissvale
Same item, same day.

The Living Room

Roxy — Tue, 14 Dec 2010 15:50:51 +0000

The living room. The never ending, dreaded project that is haunting me.
It’s an improvement considering what it looked like after we took the paneling off. Hell it’s an improvement from what we started with, panelling.

But it’s not finished. I feel like it never will be finished. Our target date was by the time the furniture was being delivered. He stayed up all night and me until 5:30 am the night before. Once I went to bed I think he gave up.

The furniture is beautiful and most importantly comfortable. My previous couch was like sitting on a log.

So what else could go wrong? The end tables have minor damage. The love seat has black spots on one side and a small tear. The best part? It’s from Roomful Express. Three days after my furniture was deluvered the news announces they are going out of business. Think they have returned me calls in the midst of their liquidation? No.

Ugh I just want it to be over. Until it is we have no Xmas decorations up, no lights, and no tree. It’s killing my holiday spirit. Guess who is having the family over for Xmas dinner?
Yup.

What are they thinking?

Roxy — Wed, 22 Sep 2010 12:51:13 +0000

According to a KDKA report city parking rates are going to go up if this lease goes through. They aren’t just going to go up they are going to the moon. What kind of city do they think we are? We are not NY where downtown is the place to be at all times.

Apparently the mayor was able to set the rates with the sale of the parking garage lease. So what did smarty pants do? Some of the rates will triple! $15 an hour for one garage, you have got to be kidding me. Yeah, I will want to do a little shopping downtown. Forget the issues with bus fares supposed to be going up that’s minimal compared to these rates. Parking meters will be hit up as well with the highest one reported at $4.50 an hour.

I sure hope they find another solution. I am not paying $30 to go to a function at my kid’s school. I am not paying $4.50 to pick up a book or pizza. This is far from any good idea to try and get the city more business; they are doing a damn good job of driving it away.

I spent years on a major war against living here and started to finally find the love. This is the wrong time to do this. Year by year the city is driving people away.

TV Chefs vs Me

Roxy — Thu, 16 Sep 2010 15:36:59 +0000

I watch many food reality tv programs such as Top Chef, The Next Iron Chef, Chopped, you get the idea. I love to cook when I have the time. I’m not sure I understand my obsession with watching these shows where they cook food I would never cook let alone eat. The food just isn’t my cup of tea although most of the time it looks pretty and sometimes I get ideas.

I find the judges on most of these types of shows extremely picky. When I hear that a dish just didn’t come together I have to ask if they expect it to give them an orgasm or something. The dishes look beautiful and ingredients don’t seem outrageous.

Often you hear about seasoning issues in chef’s dishes. Often salt is the culprit. I want to see one of these chefs have the balls to put a bottle of salt on the table with their dish and tell them to season it there damn selves. I can understand not enough other seasonings, but salt &/or pepper I mean come on! Every persons tolerance for salt & pepper are different. I think thats why a restaurant has them on the table for you.

I think some of these chef judges really need a home cooked meal. A real one. One where there are little kids running around with boogers coming out of their noses.

Many of the chefs claim they are not bakers and make excuses when expected to make a desert. Do you people watch tv? Do you bother to watch the show your apply for, if it already exists?

Newsflash: learn how to bake at least enough to save your own ass.

I feel for the chefs tho. It has to be tough to have their job in real life and even tougher to be in these competitions. They bust their asses, some receiving nothing in the end. The time they are given half the time adds so much more pressure. If I had to cook under that much pressure to make dinner I would throw out my pots & pans and refuse to cook. I guess that’s what makes them professionals and me just a home cook. I can take some criticism but more often than not I think I would run away into a corner and cry like a big baby.

Mother F’er

Roxy — Wed, 11 Aug 2010 23:04:38 +0000

Yeah thats about how I feel right now. Every now and then today I feel like spouting out many swear words and sometimes do.

I took a leap I never thought I would take again and purchased a domain name and web hosting yesterday. I had one many years ago. I enjoyed doing it and had time on my hands. I saw an awesome deal and thought to myself, “Self, why not just do it!” So I did. Thus far it’s primary use will be to host my blog, with more features than on any free platform. I have many ideas of things I could do with my site but the problem is time. Time to come up with the content, create it, and keep it up. We will see what I do. And for what? Same reason I do my blog now, myself. It’s for ME, ME, ME

I am an idiot for doing so………..

Reason #1: My computer at home doesn’t work. Like I have time at work to work on it, nor should I technically. Let’s hope the home computer issue is fixed in the near future cause I sure don’t think ftp will work from my Ipod Touch. Even if it did what a PITA it would be.

Reason #2: It’s been a few years since I have done a website. The basics are still there but installing plug ins, transferring a blog, databases. OMG someone smack me for wanting to do this! I might have to take classes to get caught up in all the techie shit I have missed.

Reason #3: I need something else to do with myself like I need a hole in the head.

So that’s where I am at right now. I am cranky too and you don’t want those details.

The blog name will likely change with the move to a website. I haven’t decided yet. I haven’t decided if the blog will be part of the website or the blog will be my website. Right now I’m just like F it all. But it’s money already spent for 2 years of service so when I am less cranky and things wanna work right it will be live