Archive for March, 2011
At a time when I am trying to live with less stress I find myself at bingo. If you think its a place to go and relax and winning is a bonus your wrong. Thats what is in my master plan for the evening but not how it pans out.
*There is this lady who has won so many times tonight you would think something fishy was going on.
*No matter how posative I try to be people around me aren’t. It can have mood altering effects.
*People annoy me. Get off your cell phone so I can hear the caller. Asshole.
*When your set your heart races in anticipation of them calling your number. If not outloud people do at least have sware words in there mind when someone bingos.
*They sell obscene amounts of pull tab tickets. As the workers walk around with them they announce what they are selling. Its annoying.
*Speaking of those tickets an old lady pulled her winning ticket out of her bra.
*I have to bring my own snacks. Bingo food is like kids sports game food, not healthy.
I am getting the evil eye from someone I am with. I am blogging from bingo lol someone who is serious about playing
I went to the Home & Garden show this past weekend. I purchased a few things and wished I had purchased a few more. I may go back this weekend. We will see.
While there I filled out a form to try and win tickets to this years Best Restaurants Party. Crossing my fingers! I absolutely loved last years! I can’t afford $100 tickets. Willing to blog for tickets
My kitty is missing. We took him in when he was only 6 weeks old. He was hard of hearing and had sinus problems but my children all fell in love with him. They miss him dearly as does the dog, yes the dog and cat played together every day.
We have a new hamster, a Chinese Dwarf Hamster. I want to name her Wonton but my youngest doesn’t like it.
The kids dad came up with Nugget, my oldest came up with Joey because it looks like a mini kangaroo. Well the youngest doesn’t like any of the names we picked out.
I am adjusting. To my medication and to my life.
I didn’t post last weeks photography blog. I will guess that I have pics for 2-3 days tops. I will post them soon though this week is looking bleak as well.
I still have 3 posts to write about The Worst Cooks in America. I have notes on the last 3 episodes.
I am forgetting many things lately and allowing some things to get backed up.
But it’s not all bad. I feel better. I feel more normal. In time I think everything will fall into place.
When something worry’s me or I have a pain I don’t go into severe panic mode anymore. I am thankful for that.
There are periods of time that I have spaced out a little, even felt really off, but the more time that goes on the better I feel.
If anything better than before, so thats good.
Living with Anxiety is so difficult. It’s hard to remember a time in my life where it wasn’t a problem almost daily. In the past there have been times where it wasn’t such a constant battle but the older I get the worse it seems to get.
If you have been reading my blog you may know my doctor wanted me to try Prozac a year ago and while I had it filled I never took it. I went back two weeks ago and he gave me a new prescription for Prozac after telling me he really thinks I need to try something daily. He put me on a very low dose as he knows I am afraid to take medication. Thats part of the anxiety as well as a problem with a previous medication.
I finally did it. I filled it and started taking it the day after my doctor appointment. So it has been a week and a half. I take it at 10 am every day. The doc told me to take it in the morning and I picked that time as I have a hard time eating anything earlier in the day.
I am tired earlier at night. I had fallen asleep at 7:30pm one night but mostly around 10pm. That is a huge difference from the 12:30am and later because my worrysome thoughts keep me up. I am getting more proper sleep but am a little more tired through the day.
By the time I get to work in the morning I experience some panic. I am usually better about 1/2 hr to an hour after taking the next dose. By dinner time though I am back in the panic mode again but it seems to taper off by the time I fall asleep.
Now my panic is no where near what it once was. My panic isn’t so high that I can’t function at all. I have a hard time concentrating sometimes, especially at work, but no where near the amount before I started. The only other issue I battle through is taking public transportation. I still panic at times on the bus but it has been pretty bad in the past. There were times I cried at the thought of getting on the bus in the past.
I am still adjusting to the medication. The doc told me that I could up the dose myself and I think that may be necessary soon but I am trying to wait.
I just want to feel normal again.
I wish you all good mental health.
This week seemed to be all about the animals that reside in our house.
For some reason I couldn’t stop photographing them. The days I took photo’s of them the folder for that day is pretty full.
Unfortunately the hamster didn’t make it in any photo’s as she passed away on the 18th She wasn’t sick or anything that we noticed. We haven’t the slightest clue why she died.
Day 50 – February 19, 2011
I caught the cat right in a yawn. It was awesome! Animals can be difficult to photograph just staring at you as they tend to move suddenly, let alone get something neat like this.
Day 51 – February 20, 2011
I had to keep this photo a bit bigger so that you can see what she was attempting to eat with her sharp teeth. We had a blast blowing bubbles at her! She is a crazy dog!
Day 52 – February 21, 2011
I thought the sky looked rather neat on this cold morning.
Day 53 – February 22, 2011
The 1-3 inches of snow they called for turned out to be more like 6-8 inches. This was my work parking lot.
This is a cell phone pic as I didn’t feel like taking my camera out.
Day 54 – February 23, 2011
Awww when she isn’t being crazy she is so adorable. She was cocking her head funny but I can’t recall why.
Day 55 – February 24, 2011
These are two cell pics cause I was lazy this day.
This is what I thought I was having for lunch. Doesn’t look bad does it?
This is what I actually ate. It looked like puke and tasted like they tossed a cup of cut grass into the bowl. It was so bland despite all the spices it appeared to have.
Day 56 – February 25, 2011
Princess being………. a princess. She is just a fat cat that lays around. Can’t complain.
Can you find her eyes?
I am warning ahead of time that this week I have barely taken photo’s already. I took photo’s and video of my newphews hockey game and couldn’t find the camera battery charger until last night. So that’s 3 days of no photo’s so far. I will put some other pics in it’s place but haven’t decided what yet.
All photo’s taken with Sony Cyber-shot except the cell pics noted.
The only editing was resizing and adding my name.